Published in 2017
5 out of 5 stars
Adam has just been diagnosed with schizophrenia. He sees and hears people who aren’t there: Rebecca, a beautiful girl who understands him; the Mob Boss, who harasses him; and Jason, the naked guy who’s unfailingly polite. It should be easy to separate the real from the not real, but Adam can’t.
Still, there’s hope. As Adam starts fresh at a new school, he begins a drug trial that helps him ignore his visions. Suddenly everything seems possible, even love. When he meets Maya, a fiercely intelligent girl, he desperately wants to be the great guy that she thinks he is. But then the miracle drug begins to fail, and Adam will do anything to keep Maya from discovering his secret.
Let’s Talk About The Plot:
This was definitely more character orientated than plot orientated, so to keep this spoiler free I’ll keep it short. The reader is taken into the life of Adam, who had recently been diagnosed with schizophrenia, and it really just gives us an insight into his everyday life, as he navigates through school and life in general.
Let’s talk about the characters:
Adam is our narrator, as I mentioned, I honestly thought that he was an amazing male narrator. I felt like I was seeing everything through his eyes, and I felt his torment and intensity when he was having his delusions. He was so smart, and witty, and having the book written as a journal format, in his thoughts, worked so well, because I felt like it was bringing me closer to Adam, seeing other characters as he did, as well as thinking his thoughts about everything and every one.
Maya was a great character too, I felt like she complimented Adam really well, and the two had some great interactions! I also adored Adam’s mum, she was so loyal and protective of her son, and unafraid of him. Hats off to Paul too, Adam’s stepdad, who was such a great male father figure. Every character worked so brilliantly, I felt like they were brought to life in this book so much!
Let’s talk about the writing:
I finished this book in the space of an evening, I couldn’t put it down! The writing felt so natural, it honestly felt like someone’s journal! The pacing was quick, I couldn’t guess what would come next, I was even second guessing what was real in the book and what wasn’t.
Schizophrenia is portrayed so vividly in this book, the illness is something I’ve seen close hand, and the book captures it well! I was actually addicted to reading this book, I tried to pause in between but it wasn’t happening. It was all so vivid! I felt like I was adam, I felt like I could literally see what he saw, literally.
Everyone needs to read this book! I feel like it should be compulsory reading in late high school stages too, honestly. I felt like I learnt a lot from this book, and I hope people that feel like they’re suffering from any mental illness know that they’re not alone.
Also, the quote from Dumbledore, the Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince reference:
“Of course it’s inside your head, Harry. But why does that mean it’s not real?”
Couldn’t be more accurate, period.
And that concludes my review, until next time, Happy Reading 🙂