Published in 2018 by MacMillian Children’s Books
4 out of 5 stars
When I was wild, you were steady . . .
Now you are wild – what am I?
Eden McKinley knows she can’t count on much in this world, but she can depend on Bonnie, her solid, steady, straight-A best friend. So it’s a bit of a surprise when Bonnie runs away with the boyfriend Eden knows nothing about five days before the start of their GCSEs. Especially when the police arrive on her doorstep and Eden finds out that the boyfriend is actually their music teacher, Mr Cohn.
Sworn to secrecy and bound by loyalty, only Eden knows Bonnie’s location, and that’s the way it has to stay. There’s no way she’s betraying her best friend. Not even when she’s faced with police questioning, suspicious parents and her own growing doubts.
As the days pass and things begin to unravel, Eden is forced to question everything she thought she knew about the world, her best friend and herself.
Firstly, thank you Pan Macmillian Australia for sending me a copy of this book to review; This does not impact my thoughts or views on the book.
I went into this book not knowing any thing about it, aside from the Sypnosis which immediately drew me in. What I didn’t expect, however, was how much this book would impact me. From the first page I was immediately drawn in to Eden’s world; for she is our narrator, and we see everything through her eyes; and I loved reading about her, learning about her background; it was one of the most fascinating YA narrator’s back stories, talking about how she and her younger sister Daisy went in and out of foster care, before being taken in by Carolyn and her husband. It was Carolyn and Eden’s foster mother and daughter relationship that was one of my favourite supporting aspects of this book: as well as Eden’s interactions with her little sister, Daisy, who was so precious; and the little interaction with Bonnie’s little sister, Rowan. These scenes made me so sad: because, at the heart of it, I feel like we have the core of the text:
“Would you tell if your best friend ran off with an older man?”
Because, we learn at the start of this book, Bonnie has run away with Mr Cohn, their music teacher. This sets the entire book in action, and honestly my heart! I was so torn throughout; not knowing who to trust, what to think, or what could happen next! I felt so sad for Bonnie, and wished she confided more in her so called ‘best friend’. Because I love how Eden and Bonnie were so close; and I wanted Bonnie to snap out of whatever she was thinking! This book actually had me lost for words, at times, in the best way! I had my theories about what could happen; but I was definitley proven wrong; and honestly I cannot believe what happened by the end! I am still wondering why and I would actually really love a follow up book; it just seemed so unreal; but honestly: this was such an amazing book!
I love how the story jumped from Eden’s narration to text messages that she exchanged with Bonnie; and also, excerpts from conversations they’ve had in the past; and how they took on a whole new meaning after Bonnie went away; this, and those messages really pulled at my heartstrings: wanting to know what was happening and why!
The writing was definitley packed full of emotion; and I love all the interactions that Edie had with everyone; and I definitley felt her emotions and feelings of conflict throughout! As extreme as it sounds: I feel like I would have made the same choices; which I won’t comment on more, because I definitley recommend this book!
Thank you to Hannah over at Pan Macmillian Australia for sending me a copy of this book to review; and to everyone else; happy reading 🙂